Just fucking stop it. Seriously, get over yourself (rant within).

I am so irritated. And I know it's being stirred up by the full moon this week. The fact that I am pre-menstrual. That there is a lot of shit happening right now around me that doesn't make for a very settled environment.

BUT. I would really appreciate it if everyone stops being a victim and starts owning their shit.

Yes, yes, I know, the fact that this is triggering me SO much is because I probably still have some work to do in my life around this. I just can't contain my rant though.

It's like the universe is bringing all the people with all the situations and all the stuff into my path so I am forced to look at it all and decide how I am going to proceed (with caution).

The whinging. The complaining. The grouching around about the FUCKING WEATHER. The one thing we can't do anything about (except move). Honestly. Let's accept that the weather is the weather and it doesn't have a FUCKING CHARGE UNLESS WE PUT THE CHARGE ON IT.

Anxiety. I have been there. Really badly. I was having panic attacks, I was seeing a psychologist, they wanted to put me on meds, I get it. I do. It sucks.

But you know what I did, instead of bowing down to it and then bitching because I had it? Instead of letting it rule me? I fucking WORKED ON MY SHIT. I worked on myself.

I cleaned up my diet.

I started practicing more yoga.

I meditated.

I listened to wellness podcasts.

I went for a run when I was feeling overwhelmed.

I surrounded myself with good people.

I journalled.

I saw a counsellor and did my homework.

I made sure my environment was conducive to reducing stress, clean, calm, quiet, not cluttered.

I slept enough.

I did what made me happy with my career.

I got rid of excessive stressors.

I did affirmations.

I organised and structured my day to day life.

Anyways, you get the picture. I fought for a (mostly) anxiety free life. It wasn't easy but nothing is.

You can let anything rule you if you want it to.

Money worries. FOR FUCKS SAKE MONEY IS ENERGY PEOPLE AND THE MORE YOU WORRY ABOUT IT THE MORE YOU ARE GOING TO BLOCK IT. Also money isn't everything. Money doesn't equate to happiness. Money doesn't make you a better person. Money isn't going to change anything unless YOU CHANGE IT YOURSELF DAMMIT.

Also, if you're living your life just to make money and then to make more and then to make more, then what the fuck is the point? Spending your whole life making money and then not being able to enjoy it? To keep buying new shit and more shit and more of the new shit when you can't take all this shit with you, and you don't need it anyways?

I don't get it. I don't. That's not life to me.

I worry about money, sure. But when I do, I sit down, I look at my finances and I figure out a way to make things work. I change things. I shift things. I do affirmations and breathe deeply and think about the best possible scenarios because I know the more I stress the less I get.

I am not saying I am a millionaire rolling in dough, but money flows freely for me and I don't want to mess with that by stressing about where the next dollar comes from. It will come.

Quit complaining about your life. Seriously. Either change it or get over it. The amount of people I hear just in general day to day who HATE THEIR JOBS, or argue constantly with their partners, or despise where they live or loathe the state of their health and DON'T DO A FUCKING THING ABOUT IT.

It's your choice.

And as I come back to this blog a few weeks later, maybe here is me, complaining about the complainers?

Life is so fucking precious, that's what gets me the most. We can't predict what the rest of our lives look like and how long we will be here. We just don't know.

So instead of waiting, let's just do. Instead of thinking, let's just act. Instead of doubting, let's just try it.

Stop worrying about what other people think of you. What you think of you. Whether what you are doing is right. Whether you are good enough. And just fucking BE.

Fuck, I have been there and now I know that you will never be "good enough" until you simply accept that you are amazing as you are, right now.

Don't wait for the day when ... because it just might not come and that's the reality of life.

Stop complaining about what you don't have and go and get it. Stop whingeing about what you can't change and change it.

You want it? You need it? Trust the universe and move toward it.

Besides, we agreed on this life and it's lessons long before our souls descended here...So let it flow.

PS I complained about the weather this morning because it was only 7 degrees and I get cold! So I am going to try and spend more of Winter in Bali next year, haha.